DREAM: Sitting in the backseat of a car—Courtney Gannon and Eve Grice are next to me—Josiah is in the passenger seat. My Dad is driving and keeping silent. Courtney gets out of the car for some reason, I think to use the bathroom. I go on a spiel about how I feel judged by her and other people—covering all sorts of topics and points—most of what I’m saying seems logical. Courtney gets back in the car and wants to move up front with Josiah. I object, “You can’t do that!” As she climbs over the seat and situates herself next to Josiah, I continue on with my rant so she can hear, “…all these ideas about me you’ve conjured up from other people’s ideas about me…twisted truth…making me out to be this horrible person…shunning me away…you don’t know me…you don’t my situation…you don’t know the real story…you think I’m unenlightened because of my mistakes…” The whole moment feels real. I can hear my own voice distinctly in my head as if I was speaking in waking life.
4:20 p.m. I arise from bed.
Breakfast: Red Navel Orange. Ezekiel 4:9 Cinnamon Raisin Toast with Butter. Orange Mangosteen Juice. Zinc.
Meeting Benji at Barnes and Noble to sell him a projector. Standing in the magazine aisle talking about the latest projects and work we’re involved in. We suddenly realize what a small earth this is when Tyler Strickland and Sara Peterson appear in the café.
Lunch: Grilled Cheese with Tomato. Salt n Vinegar Chips. Honey Oolong Tea.
Starting Deliver Us from Evil [2006], a provocative documentary about Catholic priest, Oliver O’Grady, who molested and raped 25 children in the 70’s.
Musicplayer practice on the storage unit.
Eating a Yogurt Granola Bar.
Organizing some paperwork for the newspaper route.
Dinner: Pizza with Peppers and Onions.
Watching Deliver Us from Evil.
Editing video footage.
Working the newspaper route.
Coffee and Donuts.
Sleep 8 a.m.
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