Its sometime after eleven. She’s getting up to go home. Watching her movement—snapping her bra strap back on—slipping her sexy dress back on—I like to watch this part. I’m such a creeper. “You’re so beautiful.”
Back to sleep.
DREAM: A pile of blankets stuffed against a wall—on a mattress—I’m situated to go to sleep. There’s a doorway that’s been opened within the wall exactly at the head of my mattress revealing the outside—it’s raining and the water is soaking the blankets.
It’s after 7 p.m. and I’m waking up. Ugh. This is too late.
Breakfast: English Muffin with Peanut Butter. Orange Juice. Zinc.
OMG. This house is back to going through one toilet paper roll a day!
Target.
Search Engine Evaluation.
Hanging out at Harpoon Larry’s with the queen. Saint Patty’s Day—green is everywhere. She’s got cute curls in her hair—such a beauty. I choose not to drink anything tonight. That catchy Kesha song thumping on the stereo—Margot and her friends are cheesing out, singing along, being girls. I’m half watching a college basketball game on the TV. She likes that I’m here—kissing me and being sweet.
I give her a ride to her house and lounge on the couch—she’s eating an egg sandwich and I eat two of the cupcakes we baked a few days ago—Who’s Line Is It Anyways? on TV.
She’s aware that rushing back into things is a bad idea. I know this too. How do we do this properly? Space will give her time to decide what she wants, as well as me. But isn’t this anti-climatic? I’m afraid of distance. I don’t want to lose her.
Hugging before I leave, “I have everything you need.” [kiss, kiss, kiss]
Coffee with Honey and Milk.
Counting quarters.
Since when did my life become a soap opera?
Newspaper route—bringing my roommate Dustin along with me for training so he can cover my shift tomorrow.
Snacking on Mixed Nuts and a Cinnamon Sugar Donut from 7-11.
Stretching and doing crunches—listening to The Hype Machine.
I go for a run around the neighborhood. Ah yes. It’s been a while. It feels good to get the blood flowing again—the combination of sex yesterday and fitness today is what my body really needs.
Dinner: Spaghetti with Tomato Basil Sauce, Onions, and Mushrooms. Garlic Bread.
Watching Strange Days [1995].
Search Engine Evaluation.
Sleep 10:20 a.m.
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