DREAM: Vision of an antique red convertible that’s abnormally wider than a regular compact car. It’s almost as if they built an extra half onto it. Camera view above the car as the wind blows across the rider’s faces. Margot’s in the half side by herself looking a little out of place. Josh and someone else are sitting in the backseat with smiles on their faces having the time of their life. It’s a road trip and it’s understood to be an escape from responsibility.
Sometime after 1:30 p.m. Morning sex.
Me: “You’re sexy.”
Her: “You’re silly.”
Breakfast: Everything Bagel with Cream Cheese. Orange Mango Juice. Zinc.
I put up an ad to offer someone to stay at our house rent-free in exchange for cleaning services. Within the minute, people respond. I inform Kevin a girl will be coming by to check out the room cause she’ll be sleeping on Dustin’s top bunk. He immediately starts cleaning up his room to make a good impression for her.
Me: “Kevin! She’s going to do that for you.”
An old friend of mine from Belarus contacts me. Yana. I haven’t been in touch with her. It’s been maybe 3 or 4 summers ago since we met and developed a wonderful friendship. On the web cam—she’s wearing a komodo gown and making tea. She looks so happy and full of life. Catching up on each other’s lives…
Her: “I’ve seen your girlfriend online. She’s so unusual. And you look so different.............Are you happy?”
Me: “Yes. I’m happy.”
She tells me about a time when she made love to someone with my songs on in the background.
Me: “Really? I don’t believe that.”
Her: “I think if you can make love to a song then it’s a good song.”
Lunch: Grilled Cheese with Tomato. Salt n Vinegar Chips. Honey Green Tea. Peach.
Watching Cop Land [1997].
Musicplayer rehearsal at the storage unit with Cj and Chris. Running through the songs with Cj—he gets more and more confident in the material every day. Feeling good about the show this Saturday.
Back at the house meeting with Lauren Lowery as she will be our house nanny starting this weekend. Sharing some watermelon and talking about second chance marriages.
Darren’s “trying to hang out.” He understands the concept of double thinking and how prevalent it is in out society.
This is probably one of the funniest sites I’ve seen all day: http://animalsbeingdicks.com/
Darren: “Do these animals even understand the complexity of their actions?”
Hanging out in Darren’s room with Kevin and Dustin, entertaining ourselves with this animal site.
Dinner: Tuna and Rice with Onions. Hearts of Palm in Fresh Garlic. Coke.
Getting a kick out of all these voicemails I saved from Kenneth. Oh and there are many. Sitting there on Darren’s futon playing them all simultaneously. “It’s a Kenneth flux capacitor!” That’s what we’re calling this stupid little recording we made.
Eating a small bowl of Frosted Shredded Wheat Cereal.
Anthony walks in with more things on his mind than I’ve ever seen. Ultimate decisions. Reflections on the lack of nurturing of this newly acquired family he’s been a part of here at the house. He’s a family man at heart. He believes strongly in community, a rare quality, and one that contradicts the American view of individualism. He’s conflicted. He’s frustrated with the ever-changing tide of relationships. I can relate.
Me: “I’m the conductor of this train and people come and go. Some stay longer than others. But I’m always here. I’m not a nomad. I like stability.”
Anthony: “Well I want to be an engineer on your train. Can I do that?”
Me: “Of course. I’m always in need of workers.”
Anthony: “Okay but I might take breaks and flirt with the passengers.”
Sleep 5 a.m.
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