Sunday July 24 2011

Awakening just before 11:30 a.m. I continue lying in bed for a few minutes—thinking—pondering—fresh and beautiful thoughts of surrender and change…

Breakfast: Bagel with Cream Cheese. Orange Juice.

All day shift at China Wok.

“Once upon a time there were two boos named Raven and Robert and they were best of friends when convenient. They sat under caterpillars, loafed on bags of rice, drank high fructose corn syrup, and laughed at cats making biscuits. The end…”

“But the end wasn’t as near as they thought for the wicked witch of the east appeared and took Robert’s carriage in hopes it would end the boos connection but nothing could stop them. They were bound for adventure and the trials to come would only make their bond stronger. The beginning…”

“But alas one boo would be leaving in exile towards bigger towns and the empathetic connection would be tested for the first time ever. Never. Whenever.”

“Yes it’s true. For he was scared, the other boo. ‘Things happen for a reason,’ he kept telling himself. The other boo made him feel fresh, for that he was truly thankful. ‘Boos stick together!’ he screamed. And his faith was strong.”

XXX Vitamin Water.

So for the past few days I’ve decided to go sockless, which allows my feet to breathe. Today I’m starting the sleeveless muscle shirt trend and now I feel I’m turning into the stereotypical delivery driver. All I need is an 80’s era Toyota pickup truck and a backwards baseball cap.

Lunch: Egg Sandwich with Tomato and Mayonnaise. Salt n Vinegar Chips. Honey Green Tea.

I spot Margot’s car in the overcrowded Border’s parking lot. I demand she ride with me on an order. She just bought Hello Kitty pens from Michael’s so at work there would be no question as to whose pens they were.

“They’re undeniably Margot’s! Undeniably.”

A busy day for deliveries.

Lemonade and Green Figs from Trader Joe’s.

She left her pens in my car.

Her: “No! Don’t steal them! Bring them back to me tonight!!!!”

Me: “nope. mine. :)”

Her: “Stoooooop it! :(……..I won’t break up with you if you give them back.”

I happen to get an order on Abingdon, which is literally a block away from her house. She comes outside with a slice of pizza for the road.

“Thanks baby!”

As I walk away and back out of the driveway I notice she’s still staring at me, with a warm longing look in her eye. A second later I get a text, “I love you.”

After 10.5 hours I’m finally done with Chinese food….

Enjoying a Bavarian Hefeweizen.

It’s James’s birthday at midnight. We all signed a card and gave it to him.

Dinner: Chicken with Brown Rice and Broccoli.

Margot’s here in my room. I feel so tired. We just talk…sometimes talking about the subject of breaking up but both afraid to state an opinion either or…just hypothetical. She was pondering these thoughts yesterday. Analyzing some of the recent episodes that wreaked so much havoc on our hearts. Reclining back on the futon and staring at the fluttering fruit flies swarming by my desk. I just put out a fresh container of apple cider vinegar to catch and drown them. I can’t figure out where they came from….

Her: “Why would you want to be with me? I’m a nut.”

Me: “Cause I love you. That should be enough.”

She does this thing where she tickles me while reciting in a kid-like tone, “Tickle Bunnie! Tickle Bunnie!” A big smile on her face. Her laugh is reminiscent of a character on a Japanese cartoon where it sounds like its spelt, “Hehehe!”

It’s these little things that keep me in it…the cute adorable irresistible qualities. Even during uncertain times such as these, there are inalienable truths in respects to our feelings and desires that are hard to dismiss. I really don’t know what’s going to happen or how it will happen. But at least the bug is in our ears so when and if that time comes we’ll be somewhat prepared for it. But for now, I’m hers and she’s mine. And that’s that….

Cinnamon Toast Crunch Cereal.

Sleep 3:30 a.m.