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[i]Waking up super late. 2:25 p.m.
Skype chat with Aysena.
Strawberry Toaster Pastries. Orange Juice. Vitamin D (2000
IU). Zinc (50 mg).
Anthony gives me a ride to pick up my car at the body shop.
Then getting the windshield replaced; it had a crack in it since half a year
ago when I got into that accident. It’s relieving to have my car restored back
in good cosmetic condition.
Peanut Butter English Muffin. Goldfish Crackers. Honey Green
Tea.
Watching The Thing (1982).
Tweaking and playing drums at the storage unit.
Back home, taking one of my old headlights and installing a
light bulb inside it.
Lentils with Onions, Carrots, String Beans, and Mac n
Cheese.
Hanging out with Leslie and Darren at the dinner table –
eating homemade Strawberry Ice Cream out of mugs – drawing with markers and
psychoanalyzing society’s downfalls – feeling enraged at the ignorance in the
world.
...
Darren: “I feel like everyone should second-guess everything
that they do.”
...
Darren: “Dude, do you think I could wax my mustache with
Bee’s Wax Chapstick?”
...
Meanwhile Leslie writes me up a fake ticket with her little
notepad.
Me: “Aw dude. I just got a ticket!”
[ii]
The conversation gets taken over by Darren venting about him
and I’s China Wok troubles.
...
Darren uses the word faggot in a sentence, a derogatory word
to most.
Leslie: “That’s a very hateful word.”
Darren: “I’m desensitized to language. And I feel like most
people are. And I don’t feel like we live in a very constructivist society...I
just can’t believe that many people really get offended.”
Leslie: “Don’t you think that’s crazy that we are
desensitized to language?”
Me: “Would you prefer to be desensitized?”
Darren: “Yeah I think that desensitization is important.”
Leslie: “I think it’s sad.”
Me: “Don’t you think words lose their power when you become
desensitized to them?”
Darren: “No. No. The idea is that words themselves are
nothing. It’s the ideas behind them...”
Leslie: “I get that.”
Darren: “Overall, I think people have become desensitized to
ideas. Everything is just so televised. People don’t have to feel anything
anymore. They’ll just wait around to be told how to feel.”
Me: “The revolution will not be televised!”
Darren: “So whatever...all I can say is that I guarantee you
if you walk down into the Rainbow Cactus and there are a bunch of gay people
down there goin’, Where my faggots at? And if we walk down to The Cave
there’s a bunch of black people all goin’, Where my niggas at? But if
you go down to the honky bar there’s not a bunch of white people goin’, Where’s
my white people at? cause you’ll get shot I guess...even in a white bar
nowadays.”
...
Talking about the lack of nutrition education...
Darren: “Someone doesn’t have to actually be poor to live an
impoverished life because some people will scrounge money because they grew up
in poverty, and they’ll teach their kids to live like that, and some people
just have shitty parenting skills, and some people neglect their children.
There are all kinds of situations...but I think sending your kid to school...having
a six-year old come home to their mother and be like, Mom, my teacher told
me that I should eat veggies, and six-hundred pound mom is like, WE’RE
GOING TO GAD-DARN WENDY’S TONIGHT CAUSE THEY GOT THE DOLLAR MENU, or
whatever.”
...
Leslie: “I think ignorance is pretty much universal.”
Me: “You can’t educate ignorant people.”
Leslie: “But ignorance is a choice.”
Me: “But how do you deal with ignorance then? If the
majority of the population is ignorant what do you do?”
Darren: “You euthanize.”
[Sarcastic maniacal laughter ensues]
[iii]
Sleep 5 a.m.
[i] Marker art
by Leslie.
[ii] Outlandish
Ticket given to me by Leslie.
[iii] Sobriety
Anniversity. Marker art by me.
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