Monday October 28 2019

Waking up at 11:20 a.m.

 

Oatmeal with Cinnamon, Strawberries, Maple Syrup, and Almond Milk. English Breakfast Tea.

 

Catching up on chores and business.

 

Hard Boiled Eggs. Potato Chips with Avocado. Toast with Butter and Jam. Coffee.

 

Wanda has been tending to my mom in the hospital being a wonderful friend to her. She calls me on behalf of mom with some very upsetting news. After doing more tests/scans and determining more info on the mass they found on her adrenal gland, all the signs are pointing that the cancer has entered her bloodstream. This is not good whatsoever. Some of the words Wanda uses like “this could be the end” and “funeral” don’t sit well with me. It feels like I’m being hit with a ton of bricks. I’m feeling so overwhelmed right now.

 

I have to power on and get into work. Luckily, I have Rachel to handle the front desk at Music Makers for a few hours. There’s still much to do in regards to the schedule and communicating with parents/customers until 8:30 p.m.

 

Japanese Style Fried Rice with Chicken Sausage and Kale.

 

I gather some things for mom and go visit her in the oncology part of the hospital, room 2002. I sneak in some of that turmeric supplement for her to keep taking. She had a very upsetting day but she seems at peace. We talk about all the complications going on. Honestly, we have to wait till she talks more with the doctors tomorrow to really know how to move forward with treatment.

“I love you, Robert.”

“I love you too.”

She explains to me, “We have a special mom and son relationship. We have no plans for death. We have plans for living. I don’t know what’s gonna be down the road. But I think that we need to find a way to go somewhere, do something – my plan is to live every day that I have as full as possible.”

 

Back home. I explain to Ana everything that’s going on.

 

 

Sleep 3 a.m.