Monday May 17 2021

Waking up around 11:45 a.m.

 

Cereal with Nuts, Blueberries, Banana, and Almond Milk.

 

Working out at the gym.

 

Scrambled Eggs. Spinach. Toast with Butter and Jam. Coffee.

Watching the Sons of Sam docuseries.

 

Teaching lessons at Music Makers.

 

Quick dinner: Vegan Sausage with Asparagus, Carrots, and a small amount of leftover potatoes.

 

At ELO rehearsal. Rebecca is actually here to try out the female vocal role since Bri backed out of the band. She said she was nervous but after working through the first half of the set it’s obvious she’s in. I had a good feeling about it.

 

Back home. In the kitchen. Roland’s waiting on some jalapeno poppers in the toaster oven. I’m slurping up Dolma’s (stuffed grape leaves). Ana appears to make green tea. For some reason we get into a discussion about the spectrum of prog rock and how dead heads (Grateful Dead fans) are on one end but bands like Yes and Rush are on the opposite end.

 

Blueberry Muffin. Green Tea.

 

Later on, reconvening with Ana about our day. We get into a bit of a dialogue about our relationship.

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I get real animated and declare, “Ana, the day that you choose to trust me is the day I turn into a rainbow! Who knows, maybe my hair will start growing back!”

 

At some point we settle down in bed. She’s still real sensitive and obviously not relaxed – nor am I.

She rustles herself up from the bed and says rather sternly, “I don’t wanna be with you anymore.”

This is not the first time I’ve heard her say something along these lines. She jumps to this conclusion almost every time we hit a road block in the relationship. It’s natural for her to give up when things are overwhelming. It’s natural for me to fight harder.