Thursday June 30 2022

 

Waking up around noon.

 

Oatmeal with Cinnamon, Blueberries, Flax Seed, and Almond Milk. English Breakfast Tea.

 

Catching up on business then running errands.

 

Helping James at the front desk at Music Makers – there’s always something to deal with. He’s been a big help the past two days being able to watch the front desk and all.

 

Eggs. Spinach. Sweet Potato. Bagel. Coffee.

 

Teaching lessons at Music Makers.

 

Back home. Ana’s been moving all her things out of her room – she’s supposed to be moved out by tomorrow night. It hits me like a ton of bricks seeing her room coming apart. I know she’s been avoiding any kind of interaction with me but for the most part we’ve been amicable via text. I’ve also been keeping myself busy and not dealing with any of the emotions of it but now I’m feeling it again.

 

Making myself some dinner: Indian Peas with Baby Broccoli, Squash, and Rice/Quinoa.

 

Meanwhile, Ana is here gathering her things into boxes. I help organize some of her baking supplies – we chat about a realistic timeline for her to get everything out. Then, outside by her car – she sits in the driver’s seat as I stand there leaning against mom’s truck. Unplanned, we discuss the real shit – it’s mostly me apologizing for not being gentle enough and expressing how much I loved her. She’s definitely moved on but also gets emotional talking about it. There’s still much resentment to smooth over – there’s no telling when 100% healing will come. I cry telling her how I still love her and care about her. But I want her to be happy and fully support the changes she’s making.

 

Riding my bike to the studio to organize a few things.

 

Snacking on Fruit then going to bed.